KarmaTube: Art From the Soul

KarmaTube: Art From the Soul

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I went to the knee doctor today. He confirmed that my knee is getting worse and I will need a knee replacement at some point. He said that I should hold out on having anymore surgery if I can. He feels I am sort of young for a knee replacement, because they don't last too long and I would have to get another one later on. He recommended lubricant shots to help with the pain and a new type of orthotic. I tried the shots a year ago and they did help some, so I will do those again.

I have been wearing orthotics for a long time now. They only fit into tie shoes that are not very attractive, but everyday I put them in because I know I will be sorry if I don't. Now he is saying I need a different kind and that the ones I have for my feet may be working against what I need for my knee. Hmmm... sort of makes sense, but I wonder why he didn't tell me that 2 years ago?

In other news so much is going on with our aging parents. Dad isn't doing so well since his last hospitalization. He is more confused at home and is weaker than ever. He still managed to plant his garden by sitting down on the seat of the walker. He spends most of his days outside trying to trap squirrels and chipmunks so they don't eat his vegetables. My husband has to take the animals for a ride down the street and let them go. It will be a losing battle. It isn't bad that he goes outside, but he sneaks out when mom runs to the store and that is so unsafe. He will not listen to anyone.

My in law had a biopsy the other day and we are waiting for news on that. I pray all is well for her sake.

And ah... the wedding of my older son grows closer. I think I had my first dream about the wedding last night.. sort of. It was a cross of the play West Side Story and the wedding. I was about to go on for the play and was so worried about remembering my lines. When I woke up, I was sure it was all wedding anxiety!

I bought my dress for the wedding and I am happy with it, but trying to find shoes is a night mare! I am determined to find comfortable and sensible shoes that will look half way decent! I have been wearing old lady shoes for so long, I have forgotten how to wear heels.

I miss my old self. I miss her quite a bit actually. In a few years who I am today will be my old self and this may be better than I will be then, so I had better appreciate the now. Does that make sense to anyone?

Meeting Dar

A couple of weekends ago we celebrated our 34 wedding anniversary. We decided no gifts to one another but did plan to go to a couple of concerts. The first concert was on Friday night at 10:00PM in the chapel of a university in the next town. The campus experienced a tragic murder a few weeks ago where one of the college students was gunned down as she worked in the college cafe and bookstore. She was being stalked by an acquaintance who found out where she went to school. Dar Williams, the folksinger, is an alumni from the school and came back to do a benefit concert in honor of the student and to raise money for her scholarship fund.

Dar performed there just back in March and we had a wonderful time, so we decided to go and see her again and support the cause. Since seeing Dar a couple of months ago, I had been playing her music almost daily and discovered a wonderful song called, The One Who Knows. My son and I decided that we would use the song for the mother and son dance. It was in my mind to be able to share that with Dar and I had considered trying to write or email her, but hadn't made the effort. So I was hoping that I would get to meet her that night and tell her. I felt it was a good omen when she closed the show by introducing the song saying that she does not usually sing the song for groups of college students, but that particular night since it was graduation weekend and the audience was full of parents she would sing...The One Who Knows.

I was so excited as I never heard her perform it live. Well, lo and behold, after the concert she came out and I did get to speak to her and tell her we had picked out that song for our mother and son dance. She said a couple of people had told her that they used the song, but it was for the father and daughter dance. We were the first, that she knew of, to use it for the mother and son dance. She then said that I had done a good job of raising my son if he was touched by that song. It made me feel good. Of course my husband was standing right next to me and I did not give him one ounce of credit! LoL. We both tried hard to raise our sons with a great deal of heart and tried to counter act all the macho hype that society tries to put onto men.

So it was very cool to tell Dar Williams that we were using the song, and so touching to hear her perform it. We were lucky we got to see her again so soon, although under such sad and tragic circumstances.