Things have been going well. I am still at home recovering from all the cancer fallout. My PCP wants me to stay home and rest and be as stress free as possible. I think it is working. I look good, not in the beautiful kind of way, but in a healthy and relaxed kind of way. lol
It has been a good week. I enjoyed a day at the spa on a gift certificate from my husband. I never went to a spa before and I was looking forward to it. I got there early so I could swim in the salt water pool and enjoy the hot tub before my appointments. When I checked in I was chatting with the director of the spa and during the course of the conversation it I brought up that I was a 2 time cancer survivor and recently finished my treatment But as I was telling her, I began to cry. I don't cry when I talk about that ever, and I talk about it often.. So it was a surprise to me to have those emotions choke me up. After she comforted me I went off into the pool. While swimming I was thinking that I could have had that conversation with that woman without even mentioning the cancer, but somehow I felt compelled to. I wondered why, but never really found an answer.
After my swim I was relaxing in the waiting/lounge room in my white robe by the fireplace, sipping water with lime and taking in how beautiful the room was and how cozy I felt. It occurred to me that when they called me to come into the appointment how it was going to all feel good unlike all the zillions of medical appointments where I was poked, pricked , and filled with chemo. I was going to have a feel good kind of day! I filled up with tears. Again. Oh how I wanted to just sob my eyes out, but knew it would not be an appropriate place to do so. Damn. I hate when I get in touch with my feelings like that and am not at liberty to let it rip.
The beautician came and brought me into a private room to start the facial and she said that her director had told her I was a cancer survivor When I tried to answer her, I choked up again. She just hugged me as tears rolled down my face. And that was it for the tears. I do not know why a day at the spa could trigger all of this emotion, but it did.
I had a great day! Facial, hand and foot massages, mini pedi, make up and a free lunch.I was so grateful to have had the day there.
An update on my MIL. She went to court and nothing happened. Not even a fine.
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