TGIF

We are heading up to Vermont this weekend to visit my sister and hopefully drive over to see my son at college. It is a rather warm weekend, does not feel like fall by a long shot,but I am still looking forward to the drive and the time to relax!

Another work week down, and for the most part it went by O.K. Time is starting to fly by with our big event just a couple of weeks away. I can't wait until it is all over. Now I have to work on the press to come and cover it so corporate will deem it a success.

Well, a happy 3 day weekend to all those who might stop by... been pretty quiet here today.

The Office

Pam and Jim are together, finally. It sort of took us by surprise in last week's episode, and had it been last year, I think I would have been more excited about it. I think I missed the build up of their relationship, but leave it to The Office to be a little bit sneaky about getting Jim and Pam together.

I do like this show a lot. I actually take the phone off of the hook during The Office, just like I did for Seinfeld. I don't think it does as well in a one hour format though, a half hour works better.

Wonder if Jim and Pam can keep up the sparks now that they are together. Sometimes when 2 characters who have had a lot of sexual tension finally get together the story sort of fizzles out. We will see I guess. It is just T.V. and a good escape for a Thursday evening.

Jenny McCarthy

Jenny has been making the rounds on many talk shows promoting her new book, Louder Than Words which deals with her son Evan and his diagnosis and recovery from Autism. I enjoy her presentations and I believe she has a very important message to get out to all the families on the planet with children who have autism, and she is becoming a spokesperson for all the parents out there who have children with similar success stories.

I am also wondering why Jenny took down her Moms of Indigo Children website? My guess is that she is aware that the mainstream is not ready to hear about Indigo Children just yet. Why they are still reeling from her position on autism.

It is too bad that people can't be flexible and open minded. She clearly states that the interventions may not work for all children, but parents who are willing to try more alternative treatments should be able to access the information easily! That is all she is trying to do.

Funky Winkerbean

I don't usually read the newspaper on a regular basis, so I am not up on all the serial comic strips. But the past couple of days my husband has been showing me the Funky Winkerbean strip. It is the saddest ever. Lisa is dying of cancer. It is a comic strip that is not funny, but incredibly real and so sad that it makes me sob.

Lisa is dealing with a recurrence of breast cancer and is losing her battle.

Check it out

http://funkywinkerbean.com/

Go to Lisa's Legacy Fund and check out the blog, a very heart felt view about using the comics to support cancer patients and to help fund research.

Well done.

Riding to work on Wednesday morning I was noticing how beautiful the leaves looked. The peak of the season is upon us and it is a glorious sight. I then remembered the Winkerbean comic from yesterday and that in the strip Lisa had gone blind and was asking if the leaves were changing colors. I started to cry. It reminded me that we can never ever take today or any day for granted. I know that. I have learned that lesson many, many, times over the years. So once again I remember and take the time to appreciate the things that seem little, but in reality are very big when they are taken away from us.

Girl Scouts

I am dreaming a great deal about the past this weekend.

Last night I was dreaming that my husband found my old Girl Scout handbook. I was searching for information in the handbook during the dream, and I know perfectly well what I was looking for. I wanted to read about all of the badges and how to earn them. I spent so much time as a young girl with that handbook wanting to earn badges, but I always had a hard time earning them on my own. I did better when the whole troop worked together. I didn't know how to ask for help at home and some of the badges had items on them that were just to hard for me to do on my own. Guess I didn't have much confidence or support back then.

For some reason, over the years I have wanted to look back and see what I found so challenging, but I didn't have the handbook anymore. I just have the image in my head of sitting in our living room pouring over the book and wanting to be able to do more than I could. I wanted to be like most of the girls who went up to receive just about all the badges and then proudly displayed them on their sashes for all to see. I wanted to more of a part of it, instead of feeling like I was on the side lines.

So after dreaming last night, I got on e-bay this morning and put a bid on a handbook. My first ever bid on e-bay and not what I would have expected to bid on. But since I spent most of my dream searching the handbook, I am going to pay attention to the dream and spend some time in real life reading the handbook again to see if I can put some of these old issues to rest.

See, it does not matter how old you are, or how insignificant an issue may seem, there is always something to learn and heal about our selves.

Hope I win the bid!

Dream of lost friendship

Last night I had a dream that was filled with love, relief and anger. Still don't know how I feel about it. The dream centered around an old friend, whom I considered my best friend in high school and for years after that. It is a long story... but presently we haven't been friends for many years, even though I tried to re-connect to her a few times. Her life was just falling apart and she pushed people away from her, so I know not to take it personally, yet she pushed in very personal ways and it was very hurtful.

So last night I dreamed that she was back in town and coming over and spending a great deal of time at my house. It got to the point that I felt used. In the dream I remember thinking: " you stopped contact all of those years, but now you are here and expect me to cater to you and you are overstaying your welcome." I was afraid to vocalize that to her because I was afraid she would leave in anger and cut me off again.

There was a piece of the dream where I had a little daughter and her oldest daughter loved her and I loved seeing them together and I was so happy to have them connecting. It was such a mix of strong feelings that I could not find a balance. In a way it was everything I ever dreamed of in real life, that our friendship would be healed.. but at what cost to me if I am feeling used and put upon?

Well, it was a dream and I didn't have to find the balance in it, but when I woke up I knew that finding that balance in relationships in my real life has always been hard. Setting boundaries isn't always easy. When I think back to this friendship, I didn't set the boundaries very well. That was years ago....but I still need some more work in my life with boundaries. So the dream sent me a message and I realize I still struggle with these issues and will try to work on them.

Thoughts about Blogging

I am reading so many blogs now and find myself thinking about all of these stranger friends during the day. So many people struggling to live a good and happy life day to day. Some with more demons to fight than others. It is like reading a few autobiographies all at the same time. When someone is behind in posting, I worry if things are OK.

I love it when I have visitors to my blog and know that people are reading, but it isn't my sole purpose for blogging, or else I would have given up months ago.

Some people put their hearts and souls into their blogs, but I tend not to do so. I am anxious to hit that publish button and get a post up. I don't take the time to sleep on the posts, edit and revise. So what started out as a place where I thought I would practice my writing skills, has turned into more of a free-flowing journal.

Maybe sometime I will find a focus and the blog will evolve, but for now it is just my little blog and I appreciate the folks that stop by and say hello sometimes.

It is a hot and humid night here, wishing I had a big cold ice cream cone like the ones at Twisted Sister on the Cape.